This date in 1980 we lost John Lennon, killed by some
asshole with a gun.
Lennon wrote some great songs when with The Beatles, and I could’ve
chosen one of those—I’ve already done two of my faves, “Strawberry Fields
Forever” and “Norwegian Wood” but there are lots more. Moving to his solo work,
his first album, Plastic Ono Band (1970) is a must and I’ll allow that his
final album, Double Fantasy (1980) is too. In between, Lennon can be something
of a wanker. Talented and sometimes with the courage of his convictions, but
oft a wanker nonetheless. Still, there is probably at least one double album’s
worth of worthwhile Lennon tracks between those two releases and today we look
at one of them.
Walls and Bridges I generally look at as Lennon’s second
best solo album, liking its relaxed jauntiness better than Imagine (1971). And
when Lennon was gunned down and we were reeling with the news—the recent “comeback”
had us thinking about him again, more warmly, after years of silence—I had two
Lennon LPs to listen to. Plastic Ono Band and Walls and Bridges. I played them
while drawing a pastel picture of Lennon, based on the photo I’ve placed at the
top of this post. That sunny smile—rarely captured—was worth contemplating.
And so is this song because Lennon, adapting the old blues line “Nobody
Knows You When You’re Down and Out,” makes a statement about how the formerly
great get treated when they are perceived as no longer great. This isn’t about
being “down and out” in the sense of having nothing and nowhere to go. It’s
down and out in the sense of falling off the radar, yesterday’s news, has-been,
old hat. And even the best of that generation that began their recording careers in
the Sixties had faced that chill by the mid-Seventies. “Everybody’s hustling
for a buck and a dime” Lennon says, then gives us the old saying “I’ll scratch
your back and you scratch mine” to indicate how self-serving praise is in
show-biz, then alters it to “I’ll scratch your back and you knife mine.” Lennon,
who sunk a few knives of his own (he made barbed remarks about most of his
contemporaries at one time or another), has something of a persecution complex,
we might say, but listening to the song after he was killed, the figure doesn’t
seem overstated.
Indeed, the song—which looks at how hard it is to maintain
true love in the slipping away of all things that time affronts us with—can seem
rather plaintive, with Lennon’s speaker searching his image in the mirror and
lying in bed unable to get to sleep. Asked about love—here, the lines seem to
address Yoko more than a generalized “you”—he replies “what it is, what it is”
and “what you say, what you say,” as if there’s no way to say anything
meaningful about what the heart decides. “All I can tell you is, it’s all
show-biz” (even private life between a couple) and, the line I like best, “every time
I put my finger on it, it slips away.” That statement seems in keeping with
Lennon’s general attitude during his hiatus from recording. The effort to make
something is too elusive.
The song uses horns tellingly, letting them come in
with the “show-biz” and “slips away” lines to create a cartoonish effect. The
joke is on the person trying to make something out of these slippery moments,
the person who wants something authentic in the midst of all this phoniness.
Finally, Lennon, who didn’t live to become “old and grey,” reflects that aging
is the surest way to lose affection. Set against this, his “Everybody’s hollerin’ ‘bout their own
birthday” riffs on aging as, if not rued, then celebrated as a date that makes
someone special. Then comes the corker: “Everybody loves you when you’re six
foot in the ground.”
Listening to this song that night and hearing Lennon go
whistling through the track’s close after delivering his jaded pronouncement on
how death tends to conquer persons’ aversion, making heroes and martyrs out of
those we reviled in life, I couldn’t help thinking how the same would happen to
Lennon. He had been something of a thorn in the side of show-biz, refusing to be a
good will ambassador for ongoing Beatlemania or making career moves that would
make him a player. He was a celebrity gadfly, mostly, and the one liable to
smear “bullshit” over efforts to lionize him and his peers. Whatever they had
all achieved at one time, none were living up to it.
His comment on all that though seemed to be contained in the
line “nobody needs you when you’re on cloud nine.” That’s where he would end up
spending a lot of his time, detached from the world-at-large, as
claimed in “Watching the Wheels” (1980), and he’s looking toward that here.
But, from the point of view of the night of his death, he was on “cloud nine”
in another way, lifted right off the planet. That whistling seemed to me an
authentic moment of transcendence, as if, from beyond the grave, Lennon were
saying “it’s all show-biz,” and “it slips away,” and that’s as it should be.
I felt a surge of admiration at that moment for someone who—mortal
like all of us—had managed to get down on tape his indifference to this little
pageant that concerns us all so much, while we’re here, and won’t mean shit the
second we’re gone. You might say that those who congregated to mourn Lennon on
that night were hollerin’ about him and not about themselves, but I’ve long
been one who believes funerals and commemorative gatherings are for those who
are alive and not for the person who has died. They do these things to ease
their own grief. Meanwhile, the late, great Johnny Ace goes whistling down the
years. Here and gone, at once.
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